Usually when I post, it's about fun, educational activities to try with your class. I love teaching. I love making a real impact on the lives of my students. I enjoy making learning fun and meaningful for my bunch of 5 and 6 year olds. Year after year, I get to repeat the best times with a new crop. For an entire school year, those kids become MINE -- we live and breathe together in the confines of a small room. And, each year, I send those very kids off to tackle to world -- never knowing if I'll ever see them again (I teach in a very transient neighborhood). Still, I hope and pray that I have made a positive impact on each one of their lives...........
But, I'm not JUST a teacher (as though one could be JUST a teacher).......I'm a mother (of 6 in fact). As a full-time workin' momma, I send my 6 to school each day and entrust them to still more teachers. Of my 6, I have the gamut of students -- the studious one, the quick learner, the sponge, the lazy (yep - got one of those).........and I have one..............well.........who can't seem to pass anything except P.E.
I'm proud to introduce you to my son, Jaden:
(Don't you love the cheese face?)
He is a healthy, vibrant 11 year old! He likes video games, playing baseball, and burritos. The kid can take anything apart and put it together again!.....I mean it -- literally anything. I stare at my dvd player with confusion and he zips right along - fixing any problem I have. He is the world's best helper and can lift stuff 3 times his own bodyweight! He's my little man!
So, what's wrong?
Well, Jaden is ADHD. He is hyperactive, impulsive, and highly disorganized. He struggles to attend, can't understand most of what he is expected to do. He lives in a world that operates against him.
Not only is Jaden ADHD. Last November we received a diagnosis (diagnoses) that was hard to handle....although not unexpected. Through the great people at Scottish Rite Hospital, we learned that Jaden is up against so many barriers -- he is ADHD, but he has a Learning Disorder in Reading, Learning Disorder in Math, and Disorder of Written Expression. AAHAHHHHHHHH!!!! Every damn thing we expect of kids in school - he has working against him. No wonder Jaden becomes so frustrated when doing school work. No wonder Jaden doesn't like school. No wonder Jaden thinks he's stupid!!!! Our education system points out all his weaknesses on a DAILY basis!
Jaden has so much to offer and to give, yet his self-esteem is in the toliet because everyday we expect him to do all the things that he CANNOT. What if you were told you were going to start school tomorrow and you were expected to learn how to shoot hoops like a pro? or flip like an Olympic gymnast?
Think about it for a sec......What is something you are really bad at doing? For me it's drawing.....oh how I wish I could draw. I've tried and tried, but it always looks like utter crap. Good for me our school system doesn't place much importance on drawing skills. If it did, I'd be a failure. I'm am simply not capable of being an artist. I was not born with the ability to draw well or even reasonably.
This is Jaden. Everyday Jaden is expected to "draw like an artist" and receives the clear message that, because he can't, there is something terribly wrong with him. He is stupid - that is the message he receives all day long.
Why do "we" do this to kids like Jaden?
As teachers we learn about differentiating and how each individual has special strengths and weaknesses. We learn about using strengths to help children achieve THEIR PERSONAL BEST. Yet, day after day we force circle kids into square holes. I'm included - it's hard not to operate this way with all the high stakes testing teachers are confronted by. However, are we considering what we are doing to kids????? Is this really better for our kids??? Is it really making our kids smarter and more competitive??? Unfortunately, I think the answer is no.
I absolutely adore the teaching profession. I love working with and teaching kids. I really believe we have the most important job (besides parent). There is a part of me (a large part of me) that is sad that I am now finishing up my last year teaching in the public school system. Each day I think of something else I will miss -- birthdays, loose teeth, silly weekend stories, 100th day of school, last day of school......
....but there are so many things now that have changed the teaching profession - things that I never bargained for......coupled with the fact that I have a son that truly needs my help. If the public school system is NOT able to teach him....to reach him -- then I have no choice to do it myself.
This next year I will embark on a new journey -- one that is exciting, liberating - yet a bit scary as well. Instead of teaching in the public school system, I will be teaching in my home with 2 of my sons.
I will be homeschooling my about-to-be 6th grader AND my about-to-be kindergartener.
Here is Reagan!
So, although I won't be "teaching" next year, I will be doing LOTS of teaching next year. I am excited to do all the things I've loved doing with other people's kiddos over the years with my own little kiddo. This blog will still be in support of kindergarten and the primary years. It's my "home" so you aren't getting rid of me.....hahahaha......I hope you will stick around for the WILD RIDE ahead!
You will be getting a better glimpse at my son Reagan and his learning throughout his kindergarten year. I can't wait to have this little one as my student!